A Honest Prayer


I am feeling so tired of the ordinary.  I seek out balance and then I remember that Jesus never commanded or demonstrated our idea of balance.  He wasn’t centered.  He did not live life in the middle- but on the edge.  He was only and wholly centered on You.

The widow who gave her coins, didn’t give what was just in her pocket, she gave all that she had.

Wake me from this stupor, Oh Lord… from desiring furniture more than I desire Your face and Your glory.  Let me want a better story.

Am I asking you to do my part of the equation?  Have I lulled myself to sleep with coffee and trips to the gym?  Why would I pray for you to change me and yet do nothing to change?  I keep my schedule, my wants, my comfort, my gain… and yet I claim I want only You.

I think I want to serve and give and love on my terms.  I want to share when I feel comfortable and when it’s convenient.

I don’t want just this.  

I want more You.  

I want less me.

Please help me to set my mind on Heavenly things and not on earthly things.

“So if you’re serious about living this new resurrection life with Christ, act like it. Pursue the things over which Christ presides. Don’t shuffle along, eyes to the ground, absorbed with the things right in front of you. Look up, and be alert to what is going on around Christ—that’s where the action is. See things from his perspective.” Colossians 3:2, The Message

Following and stumbling,

  • Stumbling and getting up again along side you. With Joy, Carey

  • Rebecca Johnston