Get Out of the Car

I really don’t enjoy being in a situation where I do not know a majority of the company present. When I first moved to Arizona I was forced to do this on a weekly basis. I was constantly forcing myself to get out of the car and walk into my own personal version of torture. Ok, maybe torture is too strong. It was like going to the dentist. That’s it. Slightly painful and not overly enjoyable until the very last few minutes.The thing is that in these situations, I know that I will be fine… eventually. I’m just really good at arguing with myself. Often the discussion goes a little something like this:
Ginger: You need to get out of the car and go into this Bible Study.
Ginger: But I don’t know anyone in there..
Ginger: That’s WHY you are going. So you can make some friends.
Ginger: But I have friends.
Ginger: Um, it doesn’t count if they are 18 hours away.
Ginger: I know, but what if these people…

Ginger: Stop making excuses.
Ginger: You know, I’m probably at the wrong place. I don’t see many cars. I should just go.
Ginger: Ok!! I’m going! Gosh! (Yes, I say gosh.)
I’m getting pretty good at getting out of the car. I’ve been in Arizona for almost six years and I’ve come to realize that the best things have come once I get out of the car.  I can’t address an audience from a car.  I can’t audition for theatre from my car.  My first date with my now husband would have been REALLY awkward if I had remained in my car the whole time.  Sometimes wisdom might dictate otherwise.  Not every opportunity available is what’s best for you… but I can tell you that most of the life-changing moments in your future won’t happen while you sit in your car and watch everyone else walk inside.

I still have a lot of fear to overcome.  I’m still creating friendships and new buisness relationships.  I’m trying to take risks and push myself.  But sometimes I need a REALLY BIG PUSH.

Dear Lord, please help me to trust you more.  Help me to take steps of faith every day.

Help me get out of the car.

I’m not saying that I have this all together, that I have it made. But I am well on my way, reaching out for Christ, who has so wondrously reached out for me. Friends, don’t get me wrong: By no means do I count myself an expert in all of this, but I’ve got my eye on the goal, where God is beckoning us onward—to Jesus. I’m off and running, and I’m not turning back.  Philippians 3:12-14, The Message

Don’t miss out on anything our Father has to offer… He is beckoning you onward!


Dear Izehi.

two week series on learning from the past and looking to the future…

Dear 28-year-old Izehi,

You are fresh off the plane from getting to live the life of a single twenty something overseas.  Living in a foreign country helped grow you up big time & a part of your heart will always belong to T-land.

But it’s time for a new adventure girl.  :)

Remember that prayer you prayed about not wanting to live an ordinary life with a regular 9-5 job?  Well guess what? God answered it with a yes. :)  You, young lady are going to be a business owner.  You’ve got a casual lunch date scheduled.  You think you’ll get reacquainted with an old friend and chat about the possibility of maybe working as a photographer someday.

That lunch is going to change your life.

You are about to eat, breathe, and live photography.  It’s going to be flipping unreal.  As you lay in your bed night after night staring at the edge of this huge cliff, fear will want to imprison you in its iron grip.  But I’ve got one word for you: JUMP!

Baby girl, entrepreneurship is not for the fainthearted.  Taking the leap to start your own business is the only the first of many many risks you will take.   But YOU. CAN. DO. THIS.  Adrenaline highs like you’ve never known will confirm that photography is what you were born to do.  You’ll be at a wedding photographing for 12 hours and still feel like dancing on the dance floor when that song comes on.  That’s how you’ll know you’re doing what you love.

But it won’t all be roses.

You think all you need is a “nice camera” and a laptop to run your business.  Um, you’re going to laugh at yourself later for ever thinking this!

You will hit rock bottom lows that will leave you questioning your sanity and decision…many times.  But don’t worry; God is placing the most incredible people in your life.  Amazing mentors you’ve never met will soon be on your speed dial.  And your family; oh girl your family will become even dearer to you than ever.

I know that right now you are scared and excited.  News flash, those feelings aren’t going anywhere.  The good news is neither is God.  You learned to rely on Him alone “on the far side of the sea” and you’ll learn to rely on Him alone in this new adventure.  God will speak to you through His word, and He will confirm to you over and over that He is leading you. Trust Him.  He’s good.  I won’t lie, it’s going to be much harder than you think, but He’ll be with you.

And one more thing, please enjoy the last of your twenties.  Don’t let photography or running your business consume you.  Enjoy your family & your friends. Have fun and don’t feel guilty about it either! Take care of yourself, because at the end of the day while it’s awesome to have a job you love; it’s still just a job.  It doesn’t define you. You are a daughter of the King and that’s where your identity is.

Love you much,
Your Thirty-Year-Old self.

P.S. All that stuff about your life being over at thirty is some bull!  Honey, this is only the beginning!

Photo by Ashley Swallow of Live.Laugh.Photograph.

Izehi is a Wedding and Portrait Photographer in Texas.  She loves telling stories with her camera.